No apologies needed. Despite my unwilling position as Lord, everything I've done with it has been a series of decisions that I've made on my own.

[ he could have traveled the rest of the world or have given up his dreams to become a magus. he could've led a more normal life, suited for someone like him. probably the life that his mother would have wanted for him.

and have been thoroughly unhappy. ]

As they say, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.